Welcome back to another installment in My Creative Journey. In my last post, I found myself shedding my art school baggage while gaining a fresh new perspective on what it can mean to be an artist. So freeing!
But, I needed to find myself within that freedom. I had stopped making art for quite some time. My art school days were long over. Who was I as an artist now? What and how did I want to create? Finding that out proved to be a little bit awkward...
Thus began a brief (thankfully) artsy crafsty frenzy where I tried on many "styles" in an attempt to find my place in the vast world of scrapbooking.
I tried the monochromatic thing:The grungy distressed thing:
The gesso background thing:
The scraplifting thing:
The cutesy (or whatever you want to call this) thing:
The messy paint thing:
The stitching thing:
And the neat and tidy embellishment thing:
As I worked on each one of these, I liked what I was doing, but when I was finished I felt less than satisfied. I hadn't found "me" yet. All of these techniques and approaches are fabulous and very valuable, but as I tried each one on for size... I just felt so awkward. Kinda like I was wearing the wrong shoes.
In fact, some of these layouts I have even gone back to redo, something I don't normally believe in. (More on that another time.) But, my very early layouts that were lacking completely in style still feel more comfortable to me than the ones here.
The good news is that this process really helped me learn some of my scrappy preferences. While I had the least fun lining up things in perfect symmetry, I had the most fun doing the messy paint layouts. They do make me cringe a bit now, but the joy I had while making them helped propel me forward into "my style."
I like messy. I like splatters. I like hanging threads. I like little bits and pieces layered up. However, I don't quite like these things done haphazardly. I don't like them done for the sake of being done. I don't like them when they detract from the story or photo. That is what makes me cringe. Now, this concept really is so subjective. What detracts my eye may not detract yours and visa versa. All I know is that they make me cringe, and I don't want to cringe when I look through my albums!
So, off came the uncomfortable shoes and I found some that fit a bit better. Although, I still wasn't sure if I needed heels, boots, or sandals....